.Wednesday, October 18, 2006 ' 5:28 PM Y
i love being around you
lets see the past few days have been really hard on me
i'm like on the verge of breaking down, literally.
it's not even like half the sem and i'm already so screwed up.
seriously i hate my course but i just don't know what to do.
do you even know how it feels to join another class for some modules.
its like &$%$^@ , nobody knows you , nobody wants to know you
and you just frigging sit at a corner all by yourself.
it's not that no one doesn't notice you, everyone does.
they're like 'WOAH who's this ass clown in our class'
'must be some idiot who failed a module'
then again they start flooding you with questions;
'what module did you fail?'
'hey what did you get for your gpa?
''erm will you be joining our class?' ; i bet they'v got their fingers crossed hoping i'd say no.
ITS LIKE TOTALLY DEPRESSING
AND IT SUCKS. no one in the would knows how i feel.
ever seen a stray dog walking along the street?
JUST PICTURE MY FACE ON IT AND ADD THE WORD
'HOPELESS'I MISS MY CLASS VERY VERY MUCH.I HATE ECE , I HATE EVERYTHING.
why isn't there anyone to be there for me.i keep saying i don't want anyone to be close to memore the less treat me good,i don't want to end up getting hurt again
but why is there this glimmer of hope in me.just praying that someone would just change my life.
i know God has planned someone for me already,
but why can't the person like just walk into my life now.
this just sounds really contradictingand it's really dronning just reading this post.
i'm just so screwed up right now
and i'm sorry, but this is just ME.
[`\____JuX.ThE.SamE.oLd.eLmo`\___x]
why do pin my hopes on something impossible.
