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2011-01-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord, praying hard that you'd would see me throught my struggles. sigh

2010-12-20T08:52:00.002+08:00

as much as i dont want it
i really wannna support her.
feeling really scared tht i might lose her.

Lord its gonna be the final round, if its Your will then let her get in,

2010-12-17T21:30:00.002+08:00

feeling frigging moody right now sigh
why do I keep messing up, why am I so reckless...

Praying that things would turn out alright.

2010-12-15T07:25:00.003+08:00

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT

at this rate, I'll never be able to collect my reward. sigh

2010-12-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

NOOOOOOOOO
arghh it's only half way throught the month and i'm almost broke already
don't even know where i'm gonna get the money to her present sigh :(
really hoping everything would be perfect this christmas.

praying that God would provide!

2010-12-12T12:45:00.003+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhh
don't know why I feel so moody when she said she wanted to join SIA :(
somehow I really want to give her my full support and be there for her
yet a part of me wishes she just stay right here.

praying hard God to show both of us of what He has planned.

2010-12-11T03:40:00.002+08:00

oh you make me smile (:
and no matter how bad my day goes
you never fail to put a smile on my face
even if it's just quietly sitting next you, listening to you rant or just watching you sleep so soundly.
I Thank God for every moment spent with you (:

(:

2010-12-09T23:28:00.003+08:00

girl, you're so one in a million
it's gonna be another long and tiring weekend
and my ankle's still hurting like hell
looking forward to eve's birthday (:

AND YES. I AM DETERMINED TO LOSE WEIGHT THIS TIME!!
diet diet diet (:

if you'd just hold my hand.

2010-12-05T20:04:00.002+08:00

the past few days have been really tiring
feel totally burnt out so much that I nearly dozed off while driving

I NEED SLEEEEEEP

2010-12-05T16:36:00.001+08:00

someone once said,
a relationship is more than just feelings, it's about commitments.

and everyone ask me why do I do so much,
because I want what's best for her, because I love her
even if it's outside my comfort zone,
even if I struggle to make ends

you (:

2010-12-04T05:12:00.002+08:00

Thank you God for reminding once again.
Its hard to change my way of living all at once
but with You, all things are possible! (:

Thanks God.

2010-11-29T20:51:00.001+08:00

down with a cold

2010-11-29T06:51:00.004+08:00

focus on the Blesser, not the blessings
arghh couldn't sleep the whole frigging night
woke up like probably every hour or so for God knows why reasons
somehow I just felt so empty inside.
and made me think of how useless and aimless my life was.
makes me feel that I'm not good enough

WHY CAN I STOP DOING ALL THIS STUPID THINGS.

2010-11-29T00:32:00.004+08:00

exhausted after one hell of a weekend
and it's because to a new camp. really praying hard I don't need to stay in.
I NEED MORE SLEEEP =.=

2010-11-22T01:24:00.002+08:00

Thanks God for everything I have now, thank God for you (:

love being around you.

2010-11-19T01:01:00.001+08:00

don't want this to happen again sigh.

2010-11-14T22:41:00.005+08:00

what a weird but awesome weekend!
woohooooooo

anyway, brother khee passed away ytd. feel kinda sad even thought I don't really know him
somehow it really shows how unpredictable life can be.

ohwell...

This week
#home group!
#drinking party to celebrate berts 22nd -.-
#public holidayyyy

i miss the sound of your voice

2010-11-13T15:36:00.003+08:00

It's not easy to be, me
why do I keep doing all this stupid things. sigh
HELP ME

Lord let me walk in Your footsteps

2010-11-12T23:29:00.004+08:00

yawnnn
uhh frigging tired today!
woke up early to go bowling for some camp cohesion thingy then headed to rcc with mum&dad for golf. seriously feel like quitting golf alr. sighh

dinner with the family was awesomeee, had a great time and the food was gooodd
best of all, 11 oysterss HAAHAH (:
yummmmyyy

gonna go for some concert with the guys for some concert tomorrow evening and i don't even know who the hell those singers are -.-" like wtheck.

ohwell gonna turn in now, nights

2010-11-10T01:23:00.002+08:00

when i'm with you, i'll make every second count
cause I miss you, whenever you're not around (:

(:

2010-11-08T18:39:00.002+08:00

exhausted
it's gonna be a long and tiring week during practical lessons
gooodnight peeepss (:

2010-11-07T16:21:00.003+08:00

Feel me anew
Gosh nearly cried in church today hahaha
praise and worship totally just got to me today, all the songs and lyrics were totally what I needed to hear right now.
and sermon was wonderful. and despite whatever I'm going through, despite what I might have done
I wanna cherish what's important to me

(:

2010-11-06T13:54:00.002+08:00

habits
I'm not perfect,
sometimes I just hate myself for doing such stupid things
arghhh

Lord, help me walk in Your ways sighh

2010-11-05T13:24:00.001+08:00

it's gonna be a boring long weekend.
can't wait for sunday to come (: churchhhh, egggcitedddd!!

2010-11-04T17:57:00.006+08:00

When you say nothing at all
have been feeling really troubled the past couple of days
and I haven't been able to concentrate on anything

too add on, I had this nightmare last night that distracted me the whole frigging day..sigh
also nearly met with an accident on the way back

arghh >=

2010-11-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

When i'm with you
2 days of rest and i'm ready to go back to camp!
spent the whole day sleeping, watching tv and making something (:

anyway gonna turn in soon, gotta wake up at 6.15 T_T
and i'm still deciding if I should go for cellgroup tml.
hmmmm

and i'm still not sure if I should postpone my operation. sighh
nights all :)

That's what faith can do

2010-11-01T20:46:00.002+08:00

zZzzZZzz

I don't like people who lie
people who are not irresponsible and self centred

2010-10-31T22:56:00.002+08:00

He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress. I will not be shaken.

Psalms 62:6

Had awesome weekend (: (: (:

2010-10-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

Don't want an ending

has to stop spending money like it's nothing
why is it so hard to get rid of a habit
CMON JEREMYYY~~

2 more days till the weekend (:
saturdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy please come faster!

2010-10-26T23:06:00.004+08:00

tsunami and volcanic eruption in indonesia
tornado in myammar
floods in thailand

I feel really blessed to be where I am today, for God's provision,my family, everythinggg. Then again Praying hard that God will just watch over all the people affected. feels damn sad to see all this happening sighh

feel really exhausted to day. went to see doctor in camp with a slight fever and gymmed after work with doug. my whole body feels so weak now

anyway can't wait for saturday to comee!! looking forward to it (: and of course church on sunday!! WOOHOOOOO

Give Thanks (:

2010-10-24T21:40:00.005+08:00

exhausted
2 long days and i'm frigging exhausted
throat is getting better and I haven't been sleeping well
anyway church was good this 2 days and I regret not jotting down notes during sermon
really needa get a notebook :(

gonna be at a new camp for the next 4 days for practical training and hopefully it won't be so tiring. and i've yet to decide if I should postpone my operation sighh.
really praying that you'll show what's best for me.

2010-10-23T23:39:00.002+08:00

Had a wonderful time at trinity church today
felt that sermon was really meaningful today; Psalms 42
anywayy church tml morning and i'm bringing doug alongg :)

wish I knew how your day went

2010-10-23T00:13:00.003+08:00

went to see the doc today i didn't know it was that bad
throat feels like there's an apple stuck inside.
anywayy gonna have a long saturday tml!!

so happy to see God blessing my dads business (: (: (:

brunch with the guys in town, visiting debs church and cousy birthday!!
nightss (:

I miss the sound of your voice

2010-10-21T21:28:00.002+08:00

uhh nearly got punked by the whole class today
had a headache and was so tired that i fell asleep during lesson =.=
anyway i'm gonna be on mc tml, starting to fall sick alr
gotta go to the doc, dentist and send my bike for inspection tml

and i've got to start saving money alr, bank is slowly depletinggg :(

gonna turn in early tonighttt
nights peeps!! :)

cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are (:

2010-10-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

had a awesomeee dayy (:

2010-10-19T21:53:00.004+08:00

past few days have been absolutely tiring
I NEED ALOT OF SLEEP.
shall attempt to drag my aching body to the gym again tml :x nightss!

(:

2010-10-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

What if
had a very long a tiring day, EXHAUSTEDDD :(
had healthy lifestyle in the morning, 3.2km run and circuit.
I STILL CAN RUN HAHAAHA...but my knee hurts like hell..
38 more days till op day, arghhh haven't decided if I should postpone it..sigh

and i'm thinking if today should be the last time I participate in healthy lifestyle, THE SHOWERING ROOM CONDITION IS HORRIBLE.. ended up soaping myself and wiping it off with a towel. =.=
and not suprisingly it was another boring day in class, ended up sneaking to into the practical lab with some of the instructors to play monopoly deal. AND I STILL SUCK AT IT :(

anyway headed to the gym after work, 2hrs of workout and my body feels like it's falling apart
I DON'T WANNA BE FAT ANYMORE!!

dad's going off to china tml!! Pray that God would just bless him and grant him journey mercy.
and yes!! I feel happy that doug wants to join me for church!! gonna bring all my friends to church one day! WOOOHOOOO (:

gonna talk to mummy girl on the phone before I turn in (: (: (:
NIGHTS PEEEPPS

:)

let's not live our lives only to regret after losing something

2010-10-17T22:12:00.007+08:00

had a very fulfilling weekend (:
now for the long week and dronning week ahead...arghh
gooood night peeps!!

and yes I think i'm damn pro with my drums, HAAHAH...time to brush up on my guitarrr

p.s I think i need a notebook to take down sermon notes!! :/

and now, I miss everything about you.

2010-10-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

had a awesome time with everyone, badminton, dinner, everythinggg
even though it might not be how I planned my saturday to be, but still;
Give thanks and take things in stride.

Looking forward to tml, but still thinking if I should go church visiting or not.
hmm gonna meet up with alex,joachim,ws,joyy,fionaa&yy to celebrate joys birthday after church (:

wish this feeling would just go away.

2010-10-15T23:04:00.001+08:00

had this weird dream last night...

would you take a dream as a sign from God?

2010-10-14T21:08:00.004+08:00

it's not easy to be, me...
42 more days and I have yet to make up my mind sighhh

anyway today was another boring day in camp, spent the whole day learning how to make stars!! but totally suck at it HAHAA
TG-TML-IF, probably gonna head to the gym after work to EXERCISE LOL
and looking forward to the weekends no matter what happens!!
church on sunday and i'm sooo excited about it :)

anyway watchd one minute of glory ytd and totally love this song
been practicing it on the guitar and I STILL SUCK AT IT. gonna put effort into playing my guitar properly!
ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS, whether in terms of love, life, studies or anything else.

baby just say goodnight

2010-10-13T17:59:00.004+08:00

Life is all about making decisions; making commitments :)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

2010-10-13T14:47:00.002+08:00

hmm

2010-10-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

is putting my trust in you Lord

2010-10-11T22:52:00.001+08:00

hold on if you feel like letting go.

2010-10-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

had a frigging boring yet tiring first day in camp =.=

2010-10-10T21:33:00.003+08:00

EXHAUSTEDDD

is half way reading throught Job and it's really amazing how he continued to Give Thanks to God despite all the shit that happened to him.

church was fun today, had this cute dance along for praise and worship hahha
and sermon was nice because it was about putting faith in God!

AND I SERIOUSLY HAVE BAD MEMORY
spent hours looking for something and still couuldn't find it in the end sighhh

anyway gonna go to a new camp for 2mnths training start tml
praying hard that everything will go smoothly! (:

2010-10-09T02:20:00.002+08:00

2010-10-07T21:45:00.004+08:00

2 consecutive days of golf and i'm friggin exhausted
had a awesome day with the guys and weather was PERFECT
even though i played like rubbish i still enjoyed myself (:

anyway my wrist is starting to hurt again
don't know if i should aim for sergeant course, that would mean i'll have to postpone operation till mid next year. then again, i wanna make you proud.

been thinking hard this few days about stuff
I really want to be sure of what I feel
and what I want in life.

OHHH YAA..today I told myself; The only way i'm gonna die driving is that I crash my golf buggy HAAHAHA. totally scared the shit out of me today.

Dear Lord really hoping you'll show what's best for me.

2010-10-06T20:43:00.006+08:00

totally exhausted from playing golf today
didn't really play well but still Thank God for everything
also my wrist is starting to hurt again...sigh :(
anyway gonna play golf with alex, stan and joachim in malaysia tml WOHOOOOO looking forward to it.
praying hard i'll play well and that there'll be good weather!!

Here I am to worship, here I am to bow down
here I am to say that You’re my God.
You’re altogether lovely, altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me

sleeeppp timee :) :)

2010-10-06T01:25:00.003+08:00

is excited about playing golf with mum,dad and sis tml (:

Pray Lord that You'll show me if i'm moving in the right direction. sigh

2010-10-05T02:26:00.001+08:00

another wonderful day to add to the books!!
SLEEEP TIMEE YOU :)

looking forward to golfing on wednesday and thursdayy (:

2010-10-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

Paul

Today was AWESSOMEEEE :) , went to church today and it felt wonderful
somehow i'm feeling excited about everything now
despite all the things that's troubling me, i'm always able to find comfort in the Lord
church was great, praise and worship was awesome, the pastor, people everythinggg :)

really praying hard that God will show me if i'm moving in the right direction.

had this weird dream last night, but God if it's what you've planned for me then so be it
what I feel right now might not be what's best for me

2010-10-03T03:02:00.002+08:00

had a awesome day today :)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
in all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.

Prov 3:5-6

2010-10-03T01:29:00.001+08:00

Thanks God for everything I have now

2010-10-02T00:05:00.003+08:00

Thanks God for everything
and in anything that happens whether good or bad, just Give Thanks because He has His reasons

(:

Thanks God for standing by me this 9weeks!
POC LOHHH

2010-09-26T19:36:00.001+08:00

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul :)

2010-09-26T19:27:00.001+08:00

OHH YOU MAKE ME SMILE (:

2010-09-25T22:34:00.008+08:00

feels like breaking down
sometimes i really wonder whats my purpose in life
never felt so depress over my golf before
maybe i'm just not cut out for it

God,why is all this shit happening to me at the same time.

2010-09-25T17:45:00.007+08:00

1 more week to passing out!!. :)

2010-09-20T18:27:00.001+08:00

I am who I am :)

2010-09-20T02:44:00.009+08:00

somethings are better left unsaid

2010-09-18T13:09:00.004+08:00

GIVE THANKS

I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU

despite having such a rough week, I know that You'll always be there to listen to me. Walk with God and you'll know there's nothing you can't overcome!

Thanks God for giving me such wonderful bunkmates :)

2010-09-17T20:01:00.001+08:00

probably get what it means by now.

2010-09-15T18:34:00.001+08:00

Mummys the best. always sending me messages when i'm down.

May the Lord Bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show you His favour and give you peace. Amen!! :)

LOVE YOU MUM!~!

this song makes me stronger.

2010-09-15T16:01:00.001+08:00

only God knows what's best for me.
gotta keep believing that there's someone out there for me!!

:)

2010-09-12T04:00:00.002+08:00

miss the late nights talking and smiling away.

2010-09-05T18:10:00.002+08:00

it's funny how you want to be with someone
yet the only thing thats holds back is that you might end up hurting them

2010-09-05T17:29:00.001+08:00

JUST WANTED TO SAY MISS YOU :(

2010-06-21T14:12:00.001+08:00

2010-06-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

if we ever meet again :)

2010-06-09T14:18:00.003+08:00

batu pahat was awesomeeee!!

really loved the whole wedding, the ballad dancer, the live band, uncle ONG's speech HAAHAHA

golf on the other hand was GREAT, shot 81 84, played well even though i feel i should be playing much better then this! can't wait to turn pro after army :)

and lastly, there's this girl at the wedding, and hell I wish i could get to know her. damn

2010-06-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

off to batu pahat!! for yvonnes wedding & golf :)

2010-05-27T04:36:00.003+08:00

i've got to admit that i'm missing you
i just don't get the same feeling when i'm around other people, feels weird actually
you know its been awhile since we last talked, really want to know how you've been doing at work, in school, your family, everything.

maybe things are better this way.

2010-05-25T06:06:00.004+08:00

just had a bad dream.
girl you've just been on my mind so much lately
and it just felt so nice texting you again.

wish i could be by your side right now.

2010-05-23T17:38:00.002+08:00

and it's only been 4 days.

hope you're doing fine, smile you.

hmmm?!

2010-05-20T17:30:00.003+08:00

miss the late nights we had
miss the times we set there just talking and laughing
miss the times we cuddled while watching horror movies
the dogs miss you too.

2010-05-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

hold on if you feel like letting go

2010-05-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

guess i really messed up this time.
sorry for making you feel that way,

2010-01-26T00:29:00.001+08:00

feels his golf swing is getting there

somehowwwwww

2010-01-24T05:02:00.001+08:00

is so looking forward to my brothers wedding
and hoping so much you'd turn up

2010-01-17T02:34:00.001+08:00

been asking myself what I've been doing all this time. 5 years...just why can't I forget about you

2010-01-17T02:34:00.000+08:00

been asking myself what I've been doing all this time. 5 years...just why can't I forget about you

2010-01-16T04:30:00.000+08:00

is still having dreams of you

2010-01-13T00:52:00.003+08:00

MY SHOE OBESSION!!!
WITH MUCH LOVEEEEEE

Bro's wedding:

For GOLF!!!
kinda like the white one more though!!
TIME TO SAVE MONEYYYY

2010-01-12T02:26:00.002+08:00

wanted to say how much I've been missing you.

2010-01-09T03:43:00.002+08:00

has been desperately trying to forget u all this years.

2010-01-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

been feeling so broken inside lately.

I just miss everything about you.
the stress free conversations, late nights, the singing on the phone, the smiles, the laughter, the uber long hours on msn, everything

and I wish I could just go back and try again

2009-11-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13

2009-11-05T15:35:00.001+08:00

played this video over and over again
and it really showed me how much i've been blessed despite how unworthy i've been

2009-11-05T09:08:00.002+08:00

had one of my best rounds of golf today
shot 5 over first 9 and 11 over back 9
now i'm exhausted!

2009-11-02T23:42:00.001+08:00

I can do all things possible through Him who strenghtens me.

AMEN :)

2009-10-26T11:40:00.004+08:00

never been so frustrated with myself
been playing for like 9months
WHY CAN'T I SEEM TO GET IT RIGHT

arghh...

2009-10-22T11:56:00.005+08:00

first day of project and i'm already dying of boredom
can't wait for 4pm and i'll be off to the range!!

HAVEN'T MET YOU YET... my eye candy
-michael buble!! CRAZY LOVEEE

2009-10-20T12:47:00.002+08:00

the accident the other day showed me lucky I am
skidded on the expressway while on the 2nd lane of a rainy day
wore short pants and shoes
and Thank God I only came out with a wound on my ankles!

renovations are killing me 5more weeks and i'll be sleeping in my cosy room!
other then that, it's waking up at 8am in the morning

and yess schools only on thursday and friday :)

2009-10-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

6 more weeks and i'm getting my own room!!
woooooohoooo

can't wait for...
#my sister to get back
#my own room
#furniture shopping
#golf everyday
#coached by alan murray!!

2009-10-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

CHINA WAS AWESOME!!
the golf
the weather
the people
the ngee ann peeps
the clubs
everythinggg

2009-10-05T18:51:00.003+08:00

it really brought memories
back then I was young and immature
should've never let you go, not in a way you least deserve.

OOHHH AND I'M LEAVING FOR CHINA TML MORNING :)
HOOORAHHHHH!!

2009-10-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

it's kinda frustrating when you can't change your bad habits.

anyway i'm looking forward to my china trip, leaving on tuesday morning
#can't wait to see my sis
#can't wait to play golf in china

and yes i'm finally getting my own room -yayness :)

2009-09-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

hitting a 250m drive feels goooooooood
i'm feeling a break through coming my way :)

#golf @ rcc on weds
#leave for china on tues :)